Invisible Child

You know where I live. You know my phone number. You know my email address. You visit and comment on my blog, yet you refuse to have any other contact with me. Why is that? Yes, we've had words over email over some thing that was so insignificant in the grand scheme of things. However, your passive aggressive behavior is aggravating. You trying to use my kids as a way to get to me, is ridiculous.

When I said that I had an issue because I have very low importance in your life and you respond by ignoring me and not taking my calls and not responding to MY emails, that only further solidifies the truth of the matter. I do not have a high importance in your life. Love? Yes, I suppose you do love me in the way a mother is supposed to and expected to love her child. However, I rate very low in terms of your every day life.

You missed most of the major events in my life. Graduation, the arrival of my children, surgeries on every member of my family; myself included, all under the pretense that one of you could not get off work..even when you weren't working. I now understand your own mother's aggravation with you when time after time you couldn't be there for an event for her.

I promise myself that I will never become you with my own children. My children now know that they are a priority in my life. They know they come first. My own friends know my kids and family come first. I have to be TOLD to take time for myself and even then I do it begrudgingly and feel guilty for being away and spend time calling them to just say hi when I am not home.

Someday, maybe, you will figure out that you are the one who needs to change and start re prioritizing things in your life to fit in your child and her family. Until then, I suppose I will only continue to see your comments on my blogs.