Wow only 2 months since my last post :)

Musings...thoughts...daydreams...nightmares...dreams...there is a topic for discussion.

I've been having these really whacked out dreams lately. Dreams of rattlesnakes, mazes, falling off a brick wall, being chased, being pursued by someone other than my husband, always running.

I suppose a dream analyst would say I am having issues in my life. Conflict that I want to run from, images I don't want to see, feelings of inadequacy in my marriage, being unhappy, wanting to be free. Fear of things coming. Fear of the future. All of these would be true.

There are so many questions of what our future holds. Right now we are on the brink of a major turning point in our lives. It will be another month before I find out where this path is going to take us. I pray nightly that it takes us where I hope it is going to take us. I think not being able to reach this would crush me. So, maybe, that is what my dreams symbolize. The fear of change or the fear of change NOT coming. Running away from where I am now and running to the future. Wanting to be free of all the BAD MEMORIES that HAUNT me where I am now. Wanting to go back to where I was happy. Where all of us were happy.

I guess I just have to be patient and see where our life is going to take us. The path has been started down. I just need to get to the end of this path and hope that when the trees clear and the fields open up, that I am where I really and truly want to be :)

Time Flies By

Goodness, it has been nearly 9 months since I last blogged. I guess things have been so busy I have not had much time for bubble baths nor musings. It's true in the summer, the warmth of a bubble bath doesn't call to me as much as it does during the cold, winter months.

Musings, as it were, can take many different forms. Daydreaming, night dreaming and just plain meditating are all forms of musing. I tried meditating for about a week and have yet to get the hang of it. Being alone with my thoughts is something that I long to have so I need to get better at meditating and carving out time for myself and my thoughts. Relaxing and doing things I enjoy are fleeting at times especially now that school is back in session. It's run, run, run and work, work, work and that leaves very little time for musings.

I hope to get back to musings and thinking and meditating and hoping to carve out a little bit of "ME" time. I'll be back..don't go too far.